am i that fat?
today i was quite late for my visa taking, so i can’t quite choose what clothes to put on, i grab a black trousers and a purple shirt.
when i walked on the street, i found myself look SUPER FAT, even fatter than how fat i already am:( then i started to look down as before again,
to escape from the strangers’ looking, i even sweat so much for my nervousness. i hate to feel like that, having such a low self-esteem.
when i walked into the hotel, i even felt much fatter, and i was super afraid when i asked the ladies about where the cake shop is.
all very slim and have a confident smiling face. me? i just have right at amount hk$96 for choosing two cakes, and a “wanna-die-now” face.
i quickly picked what i’ve chose, put tiramisu and chestnut cake for next time’s list and leave the cake shop immediately.
while on the train, i also hide my bag of cakes as i worried slim girls will see that and say i am too fat for cakes. i also worried boys will have the same thoughts.
for parents, i worried they’ll say they’ll be heart broken if having such a “love-desserts” daughter, and having such much time for going everywhere finding good cakes:(
i really regret about doing things making myself feel such uncomfortable, as my other friends are planning for their trip or future studies,
or already working. one of my friend, heather, is now working in IFC pret a manger, WHICH’S once my FAVORITE shop having yogurt and sandwich,
to be specific, HUMMUS sandwich, you all know how much i love hummus!!! eating with spoon plain!!!:) i really hope i am as grown-up as her,
but i am still always staying in that cooking/eating/sleeping/playing computer level, which my bowling is even improving in such a SLOW speed:(